It expresses better when we write in simple words.
It saves time thinking about profound words to use.
It saves people from not understanding what we mean.
I failed my English,and that is today.
Actually,I had great news to blog about yesterday but I didnt get to use the Internet. So I'm still thinking whether or not to break it out to you (dear friend) 'cause I have more even more unpleasant news to share. I guess I'll skip the consolation and carry on with the ruinous.
I miss my dad. It's his birthday today. And I was really glad he called yesterday to ask if I would want to celebrate it with him before midnight. I did not know why was he so eager to celebrate with us. But whatever it was,I felt really glad he decided to. I didnt mind. I swear.
At this point of time,you might find it a dread to read all these shit but it doesnt matter much to me because i'm feeling relieved writing in this manner and I think you should try it too.
So anyway,mom said that it was too late and didnt think it was a great idea so she called dad and explain to him. I heard her raising her voice. I felt bad.
But it was worse after I heard "until you learn how to prioritise your kids. " and "anyway you had plans already right?" refers to him travelling to malaysia tomorrow for "work". I gave a second thought and was disappointed because I figured out that he might be going over to celebrate his birthday there on the actual day and left these few hours for his family. Minutes later,I grew even madder thinking that he might be going over with "her".
I cried really hard,not harder than the day he left us though.
I wished him a "Happy Birthday" at 12am sharp anyway.
I was disappointed at myself not for failing English.
But for having high hopes again in the begining.
This happens all the time and it's annoying how we need to accept it isn't it.
And lastly,I dont find anything interesting to laugh at anymore.
I found it quite hard to laugh.I'd rather think about things and observe people more.
You might be thinking as if there's so much to think about and to observe to and that i'm just talking crap. Then again it doesnt matter to me cause I feel more comfortable writing like this. You should try it too.
P.S. Azimah,if you think this writing style is really similar to something you had read somewhere,you're right. Thanks for the hug too.
I'm done and I feel much better now.
Thank you.
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